Home Sweet Home :)

Bismillah..

Perasaan membuak2 utk balik,duduk kat rumah-guling2, tgk tv adalah satu perasaan yg sgt best sgt bagus.. tk dpt di luahkan dgn perkataan.. Walaupun tmpt yg kt pergi tu tmpt yg best, meneroka satu lgi tempat, ciptaan Allah yg sgt best, tpi macam mana sekali pon perasaan pulang ke rumah sgt best (tgk! dah terulang2 byk kali perkataan best). Haritu tinggal rumah seminggu lbih je pon.. hehe biaselah org selalu kata kan, hujan emas di negara org hujan batu di negara sendiri.. tpi dlm kes sekarg ni, hujan emas di tmpat org, hujan panas di rumah sendiri hihihi :)

rasenye mcm sebulan sekali lah akan ade coretan kat sini.. tulis2 selalu pon cm tk dpt je.. jdi sebulan sekali pon boleyh lah...

my sister dah selamat dinikahi oleh abg iparku.. jdi bak kata one of my 'sister', kebebasan berada di rumah sudah direngut.. hahah siap ada kata2 ucapan, 'selamat bertudung di rumah sendiri.. hehe teruk lah kak iman ni.. mcm biasa lah kenduri, mne ade tak penat.. penat nye tk terkata.. tp kenduri kali ni tk seteruk yg sebelum2.. tp yg palingbest ttg kenduri haruslah ttg berkumpulnya seluruh sanak saudara dan ahli keluarga.. adik beradik sume ade! wehooooo...

Ayah hensem menjadi wali :) - anak2 buah yg sgt geram hihi :)

the next day of kenduri, my dad pulak pergi ke Gaza dlm menyertai NGO yg diceburinya.. after sooo many trials, they finally succeed to enter the Gaza.. Rupa2nya kat sana ada universiti yg berjaya mendpt the best university in the Arab Countries.. and stated a place in the 100th best universities of the world.. How great is that?? Soooooo great...

cuti sem kali ni byk di isi oleh travelling.. boleh di katakan jelajah utara malaysia.. hehe dari ipoh-kedah-perlis-langkawi... penang je tk pergi.. ohh lupa.. kenduri sgt byk cuti kali ni.. sebagai org kanan-kiri-atas-bawah mam besar, haruslah mengekor.. driver lah katakan hehe Langkawi kali ni adalah yg ke 4 dlm tmpoh 2 tahun.. tp kali ni byk di isi dgn relax2 je.. tk pergi pon island hopping ke, makam mahsuri ke, cable car ke, tak.. just me and beaches ecewahh hehe.. we searching for the best food in Langkawi hehe and we have fun.. ohh yaa 'we' here refer to; me and my dearest mom..

and this holiday, i have been called to be a ...er err teacher! hihi cant imagine it.. hehe its only for 3 days.. terpakse bukak balik buku utk ajar forn 2, form 3 and form 5... hahaha dah la subjek yg kritis hahaha sejarah khb dan juga bm haha cmne i ajar? lawak.. haha hai pengalaman.. :)

ni recap sedikit sebyk ape yg terjadi dlm bulan 1 and 2.. alhamdulillah seronok :D

something happens in me

Alhamdullilah its now 2012.. tahun baru takkan membawa apa makna kalau tak ada apa2 perubahan dari tahun sebelum2.. since few weeks ago, something came to my mind.. What would i become in future.. it is not what i am going to be in terms of occupations or achievements.. but what i kept thinking is that, what type of person i gonna be?? is it just a muslim stated in card or the true muslim?? i'm also kept questioning myself, why i cant do it, if other people able to do it? its quite tense when in that situation.. many sources and materials i read mostly talked about this.. 

yesterday (31 december 2011), i remind back what has happened in my life for the year 2011.. actually something huge had happened.. but sadly i couldn't find or recall anything on my contribution towards myself, my iman, my family and others (literally). it quite depressed when you finally realized that you had wasted so much time on something that you cant even recalled back.. 

while writing this, my heart have some weird feeling that i couldnt described it.. have you ever feel the feeling of sad deeeeep in your heart but you dont know what makes you feel that way?  usually it comes together with sry session but without knowing the cause.. What i could say is that my beginning of the new semester was filled mostly with upset and down feelings.. with my terrible-unexpected- worst grade for most of my tests really make me down.. i feel like i'm already disappointing many people with their expectation.. 

i know and i kept telling myself that everything happens for a reason. in my case, finally i found the reasons.. it is that Allah has better plan for me.. He knows what is the best for His servant.. He has His own way to keep people realize that they make mistakes and want them to correct it..  at some point i feel my life is not being blessed by Him.. have you ever feel that?? 

when i'm realized i'm going to be 22 in year 2012, i feel sudden change in my emotions. i feel more sensitives towards my inner matters and myself.. actually i dont know where to start.. 

my heart is really in pain.. this would not be over until i find the cure.. for the time  being, i have to bear with pain, i think.. 

aggressively trying to figure out what i gonna be in the future.. both future(s)..

Last few days in 2011

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and Most Merciful

Pangkah2 kalender tgk2 dah sampai the last week of December means the last week in 2011. My 3rd semester in degree pon dah ended, but not officially until the examination end. What i could say along these past 4 months is INCREDIBLY FANTASTIC. with my new life there, my new classmates, my new experience live outside campus, my new housemate, my new AWESOME Mandarin team, new lectures, new building and also lots of things that are new to me. For the early 3 months, i managed to climb 10-floors stairs to go to class. this is due to inefficient and insufficient lifs in that building. However in turns i able to climb in just less than 10 mins after a few times. Based on my friends calculation, it has similar stairs with the Batu Caves's. Enough with that, i want to introduce my new HAPPENING classmates. It takes quite sometimes in making bond with each other as we are new. However i'm happy with them. This semester, we are required to do several activities outside class, thus this gives us opportunities in knowing each other. The activities we done together are

• Community Service at National Zoo. 

Taken from Ima Sissar

Not only we 'help' the animals but also we have fun together. Introducing from left NanaZainal, ZafirahSamsuri, FeezaTumin, TeahMohamad, and at the end Rusmiati.

• Someday in November, we did OSH Promotion Program. 

Taken from Ella

And again, we can see there are only girls, where is the man? It is not my class is all girls but, during this time the boys have not arrived yet. What we did is that giving fliers and educate others about road safety. For this task, we manage to get 17 over 20 :)

• After long week full with tests, quizzes, assignments, and presentations, we, the girls decided to watch movie together. We went there by 3 cars, approximately about 13 girl are there. We very eager to watch 'Ombak Rindu', however the story quite disappointing. At least to me. It is our first 'outing' , and it ended well. I really enjoyed the moment together.

Taken from Ella

• We attend the dinner which asked us to pay RM25 for the food. it is expensive as it held just in the cafe, but because of we do not want to troublesome our class rep, we decide to go. Only 15 people attend the dinner with only 2 boys from our class. the food was so delicious ans tasty. Thats all what i can say. 

Taken from Ella

see the differences between the pictures?? yeahh, the table! :)

• The lecture-students session. Lucky us, we got really good lecturers. Hopefully we managed to do well in exams. 

Taken from Mira

I'm happy with what i have now. Really. This semester really challenging my abilities. Hopefully i'm able to achieve the best for this semester and on wards. :)

last but least, my not-so-new friends, i really hope we can be friend forever. My classmates like to take pictures! :)

Taken from Mira

Till then, I apologizes for everything.

Tiap hujung minggu tak de kat rumah.

Assalamualaikum.

merujuk kpd tajuk diatas, mmg! boleh dikatakan  tiap hujung minggu tiada di rumah.. it either go to my bro's house or going back to hometown or go to shah alam... buat ape kt shah alam?? hehe i pon tk tau..

sbnrnya dh stay kt puncak tu almost a month++.. being there/here makes me think that every things happened for a reason.. who ever expect i'll be diagnosed with 'that' and luckily i'm here.. why i say lucky?? because my brother is here and he could look after me and it ease my mother to monitor my condition..

and i also realized why i'm unable to get any scholarship before in reaching my dream.. rupan2nya ni lah hikmah die..

semangat nk mengejar impian tu tiba2 ada balik.. tp this time no high hope.. just HOPE..

this is what i felt and feel for these two++ months..

i feel sad. why? i love my friends.. i love my family the most.. friends cannot family and family cannot substitute friends.. they are another gift Allah gave us..

in friendship, i prefer to have discussion rather than keep silence.. it will clarify the problems (if you say its problem)..

pernah kan tgk cerite2/drama2 yg mana si Ana (bukan nama sebenar) mengetahui sesuatu drpd org lain, bukan dprd tuan punya bdn.. drpd tuan bdn kn lg molek.. pastilah harus diguna dgn gaya yg elok.. tk gitu?

sekian. ^_^ v

nota:  ME (tepuk dada) -----------> sayang sgt kwn susah senang saya time diploma.. mereka tk dpt ditukar ganti.. we are like 'circle' no matter what happen, we'll never brake.. i really hope so.. buat assignment bersama mereka sgt lah dirindui..

AENA JUE JEM SHIFAA percayalah kt harap KITA kawan sampai bila3..

Duhai Hati, Tenanglah.

duhai hati tenanglah.. tenanglah..

astagfirullah hal azim.. istighfar byk2..

bila hati dan akal gagal sepakat, akal di dahulukan..

setiap bnd harus ada hikmah dah penyelesaian nya..

sabar ya akal, hati dan manusia tak dpt dipisahkan.. w/p akal selalunya betul, hati tk boleh di siakan.. ikut saja lah kerna akal juga yg jd pilihan nnt..